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Black Cat’s Plans Foiled Again

You will never believe it.

IT’S FRIDAY THE 13TH AGAAAAIIIINNNN!

Because the last one was in February so that means the days are exactly the same! Yay!

Unfortunately, this comes with some bad news. My black cat, who was plotting mischievously last month on Friday the 13th…

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appears to have escalated her plans. Today, I caught her walking under a totally not pretend barstool-turned ladder, and with a hammer next to a mirror, clearly intending to smash it. She’s devious, I tell you!

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Sneaking around…

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Oh no! She’s been caught!

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Vyvanse Day 30

700 AM: Wake up, take pill, fall back asleep. Ack! Inconsistency bothers me.


I think I wake up in a bad mood a lot because I’m mad at myself for not staying up after taking my pill. It’s like it’s not even me, because I do it all half-asleep so I don’t even realize I’m crawling back into bed. How annoying!

Today marks 1 full month of being on Vyvanse. (I say one full month because the prescriptions come in 30 dose pill bottles. That’s my marker.) I am still feeling very mixed about it. I like the good things that happen. I like that I can definitely notice a change in how my brain is working. I like that I am going slower and I can put focus into anything I want.

I don’t like the side effects, but they’re not bad enough (for me) to stop Vyvanse altogether. They’re annoying, but I haven’t been on a dosage for long enough to see if my body will adjust to it, so I don’t want to stop. I also don’t like that while I can put my full focus and attention into anything, it doesn’t necessarily mean I’m making good decisions. For example, if I were in high school, I would be able to focus completely on my homework and actually do it. (I never did homework in high school. I got A’s without HW.) But that doesn’t mean I would make the decision to DO the homework. I might choose to put my focus on reading, or cleaning, or basically anything else.

I suppose that’s really more of an Erin problem, though. I think I might have expected too much out of my medication, like it would magically make me want to do important grown-upy things, and that’s just not the case. Or maybe it would just be easier to tell if I’m gaining all the benefits if I were in school, or some setting where you can actually see improvement. Like sureĀ I think my brain works better with this, but I don’t know if I’m even using it to it’s potential so…

I guess that’s something that has more to do with… hmphhh I can’t think right now. Like self-worth? It’s something that I’m going to have to work on in therapy, rather than something that can be fixed with a pill. I guess I have to MAKE the decisions to do something, to better myself in some way, and ADD medication is only clearing my brain out to see what’s wrong. It’s not going to make the depression go away, it’s just going to make me…

I’m so incoherent right now. I can’t think off the words I want or even what I want to convey.

My final point is, I guess I was so excited to try an alternative-backdoor method for my depression/anxiety that I never considered the part where I’m still going to have to go to therapy to deal with, you know, myself.

I’m going to end this with an old picture of my kitty sleeping with her tongue out. She’s so black that you can’t make out her features unless you fiddle with lighting settings, making her fur look brown instead.

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Happy Sunday everyone!

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IT’S FRIDAY THE 13TH!

IT’S FRIDAY THE 13TH!

IT’S MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY THAT DOESN’T INVOLVE ME GETTING CANDY!

I LOVE FRIDAY THE 13TH!

LET’S LET BLACK CATS CROSS OUR PATHS AND WALK UNDER LADDERS AND BREAK MIRRORS AND OPEN UMBRELLAS INSIDE!

My cat got caught being happy about the date. The nerve of her!

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